“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:33
As many of you know, October marked my first month of working as a mom. Only a half time position, knowing I had duties I wanted to fulfill as a mom.
January marks the last month as a working mom, for now. How does this make me feel? Quite honestly, a little bit lost.
I see other moms, including my own mother, working 40 hour weeks, cooking amazing meals every day, and basically being super mom all of the time. For me, I don’t feel this way as a working mom.
Here is how I feel as a working mom. I feel as though I’m half way committing, doing a half way job at two very important positions. As a teacher I have a huge role to play in my students lives. Working with high risk students, in a low income school, it’s no easy task. It requires continuous professional development, planning, and a once half time position, turns into hours and energy that exceeds a full time position. A commitment I felt unable to fulfill.
Furthermore, I felt like I wasn’t being mom enough. I didn’t have the time or energy for my own child. These years are so critical for his development, and I just felt like I was doing a half way job.
Now, let me be clear, I am not saying working moms aren’t doing their job. What I am saying is, being a working mom isn’t for everyone! You must do what is right for your family and what Jesus leads you to do.
My husband and I spent the last couple of months praying, and talking about how we will continue. We have had some major changes in our family with jobs, travel, and moving. So, we prayed, for stability, for balance, and to let go of anxieties. Although it’s not perfect, we are trusting the lord to get us through this difficult time!
Here is what we do know:
1.) Right now, staying at home is best for our family
2.) God will always provide
3.) Balance in life is different for everyone
4.) Comparing yourself to anyone else is never an option
5.) Don’t let others influence you, instead pray and make decisions with your family!
Lord, continue to guide us in the decisions we make as a family. Help us to find balance, and let go of anxiety every day. Remind us to seek you and your word continuously.